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I Will Not Stray

by Caroline Chung

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This song is dedicated to my father and anyone dealing with depression or mental illness.
My father committed suicide when I was 15 years old.
Coming from a Korean family that went to church every Sunday and always kept up an appearance for our church community, depression or mental illness was never discussed. Even when my father drank himself to a stupor every night or woke us up in the middle of the night beating my mother or when he constantly berated us, hit us, threw things at us and even completely destroyed my sister's room because he got mad at her, depression or mental illness was never discussed or brought up. I survived by staying out of the house and spending all my time with my friends who became my family.
Eventually he spiraled down a dark path and we could not help him because we did not even feel close to him and did not know what to do.
The last time my sister and I saw him, he took us out to dinner and when we said our good byes he told us he loved us and it was the only time that I can remember him telling us he loved us. I remember my sister and i were crying driving away because we just knew it might be the last time we would see him.
I always believed that I would end up like him because I suffered from depression and people always told me I was so much like my dad. But I am here to tell you that you can get help and you can overcome it. I have done a lot of work on myself (not entirely by choice) and as a result I am a completely different person now then I was. I feel completely liberated from my depression and I have a very different outlook on my life now and the most important thing for me is to help other vulnerable beings on this planet and I hope that I can do that through my music and through my openness. I wrote this song to remind myself not to stray from the light.

lyrics

Life seems so cold
I don't even know
We look for answers
But we gotta grow
You wish me well
Then you walk away
I'll start my journey
And I will not stray

(chorus)
I will not give it up
I will not stray
I will not give it up
I will not stray

I ain't given up
I ain't given up now
I ain't given up
I ain't given up now

Some days I'm lonely
I just wanna cry
The feeling lingers
And I just get high
My fear once told me
That I could not rise
I'll prove you wrong
And erase your lies

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released June 20, 2021
Erin Honeywell- vocals
Khalil Doak-Anthoiny- guitar & production
Caroline Chung- bass, production & song-writer
Akiyoshi Ehara- mixing
Justin Weis- mastering

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Caroline Chung Oakland, California

Caroline is a Bay Area professional musician and activist: jazz upright/electric bassist, song writer and producer.
She had a project back in 2002 called Superbacana which landed a single on a Ubiquity Records compilation titled Rewind2 and several songs on a Newhouse Records compilation called San Francisco Under A Groove.
The album Sounds Of Haejin features 14 Bay Area musicians and vocalists ... more

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